Mental Illusion

I haven’t seen my man

for two years and counting

damn

what counting? the blessing? the stressing?

or the kissing?

he's the only one missing
in war
and hissing

only found in dreams I dream

only not missing in dreams I dream

the soldier

my heart's holder

who sat me on fire
who’s got the power

I slept to the thought of war

I slept to the thought of him with a scar

and what’s more

I woke up to a real sound of an ambulance nearby
predating, anticipating, waiting...

could I contact him? not at all

who said I was hallucinating?

it was all real

all this was real

the man

the war

the car

the scar

all this was a dream
and real