Sleep deprived & unready to mingle

contemplating
mind is pacing
nothing worthy of replacing
all in place
all in chaos
can't remember what I'm retracing
hallucinating manipulation
twisting every conversation
warping the situation
what do you think of me?
badly, repulsed, erasing
sleepless in the belly of a sleeping beast
waking up early
regurgitating his feast
why in a hurry for tireless chasing
vacant stares through liquid haze
lost in the experimental maze
nothing genuine
who am I racing
dreading life in existential angst & uninterested in engaging
reminiscing, vintage ads about anti-aging